last night's dream

Last night, I dreamt about our daughter. No, we don't have any children, but I dreamt about her. When I woke up this morning, it was so real that I almost began crying because I thought I had lost her! All day, every day I think about us having a baby. It seems silly to most people & everyone says to wait, that we have our whole life, but I want our children to be a part of that life. I don't want to pop them out 1 right after the other - I just want 1 to have during this time of freedom/new experiences (we're financially stable to have a child it's just the loss of insurance due to my ridiculous job that has messed so much up right now). It's so mind-blowing that when you marry the person you Love, you get to come together with them & make another life that is half of you & half of him. I always wanted to be a mommy & with Joshua's career I get that opportunity sooner than I ever thought I would. It just still seems so distant. This is one of those lessons on patience that you regret ever asking for. Could I have a different one now please, Lord? lol.